I dont know why but suddenly i started crying when i remembered nenek. yes you guys might not believe that i cried but i did. i was playing the guitar i suddenly remembered nenek. especially the times when me, aisyah and nenek spent our times drawing and painting. yes i used to like drawing but after nenek died i suddenly stopped but not aisyah. i think she loves art as much as nenek does. i only started to paint again after a longg period of time. maybe because i just began to accept the fact the she's gone. you guys may thing that im being emo and stuffs but whatever. maybe thats because you still have your grandparents. mine? i still have 2 left but they're as though they are strangers to me and my brothers. they dont care about us and i dont think they even remembered our birthday except their other beloved grandchildren. and you guys may think this is weird but i dont even know some of my cousins names! and some i dont even know they even existed! well i dont think i wanna go on anymore...but b4 i go , i wanna  thank Hidayah for asking David Archuleta to sign my cd.